They showed me the shell I would become
Yet blinded by love's foolish ways
I trudged on, unfazed into his murky gaze
And slipped into realms of them pleasant dreams
Where all is true and white, and only hope gleams
So I fooled myself into believing he was the one,
The savior of my soul, with whom a new life had begun
And I was rid of the beasts of doubt
For not once against his honesty did my mind cloud
God sent his army in the shape of friends a many
Who tried their best to show he's ill-worth a penny
I then grew deaf to their pleading shouts
Determined to never live a moment without
The man who had claimed all of my heart
The one who swore we would never part
How silly of me to live those words,
Given, at best, we saw each other for a year's third
Honey, it is only work, he claimed,
All the rumors are the works of the jealous, he blamed
There is no one for me but you, my love,
And then went on to sing tales of the One above
Tales he sang of far and wide,
Mesmerizing me, oh! He did entice
Never once though did he, amongst others show
That undying passion he claimed to store
Yet faith in utopia held me through
And at all other's tales, I scoffed and booed
Foreign shores beckoned both him and me
Away from the others, yet still not together be
His tales grew longer and the letters got few
Yet each screamed louder of some love renewed
But the distance and solitude laid seeds of doubt
Without my loved ones, I wondered what life's about
Each new story he spun, fell flat on me now
Yet I kept giving him a try, each time the last, I vowed
Days grew into months and those turned to years
The strain of it all like a shooting pain in me, seared
I began to pray like never before
That it might all come to a close and I reach the door
Behind which lied my happily ever after
Wherein I could put to rest all the pain with laughter
And so the Gods smiled upon me at last
Showed me the way to a door, away from the past
But it was to be but an opening of my eyes
To see all the lies and his disguise
To hear all the truths I never seemed to hear
To understand, at last, what I had come to fear
He never did love, not me at least
Then why the lies, I screamed, oh beast!
Not much makes sense to me till today
For what did he gain by staking me till my heart did break?
I never asked for one thing from him
Except for me to not be a whim
And yet, he tore me to pieces such
That look life in the face again, I really could not much
Never before had I let anyone this close
Clearly, suicidal, I was when I chose
For memories of my way of life before him
Are to me now, but, very dim
And I am so afraid to spare a look
For what I might find in tomorrow's nook
So stuck I am in limbo now
Forced, to this mighty life, bow
Yet as my muscles strain to bend that neck of mine
I promise to myself to never shed a tear or whine
For what was youth's greatest mistake
After all, no scum like him can in me shake
That unwavering belief in the Heavens above
Where Someone knows what we both deserve
And so, the records will be set right in time
And the last laugh, I bet you, shall me mine!
