Singing yea, yea, yippie yippie yea!!

I'll be climbing down the mountains when they come, when they come! I'll be roaming streets of yonder when they come, when they come! I may just freeze my butt off on mountains when they come, when they come!!

Alright, fine, I'll tone down the mad and try and return to states of pseudo-sanity... Mind that I say 'try'...

So, joy to the world, December has come! (ok, I really need to stop talking in these random songs...) It's time for the sweets, the carols, the gifts(hint hint.... ), the snows (at least in pictures), and...........drumroll!!! Reunion with old friends after a year and a half!!!!!!!! AND........... trips to San Francisco, Yosemite (alluding to the freezing butt off section of previous rant), Vegas beckon!!! Woooooooooohooooooooooo!!!

Oops! Might just have two exams left to fail before then... So...ummm..aaah, shall come back with more later....Toodles!!!

You make me wild, you irk me good

You toss my life like no one else could

Yet each time you smile and act so sweet

You make my heart, a little harder beat

I hate you most times of the day

And if I could yell, I know exactly what I'd say

But try as I might I can't make this go

This feeling that you so already know

I pray each day that you might just be nicer to me

So that I may a little happier in life be

But I love you boy, this much is sure

I hope you don't do much else for me to endure! ;)

Pointless Everything

"Purpose! Need! Ambition! Focus! Plan!" People seem to be going hoarse in trying to drill this wannabe motto slogans into your head. They're so focused on their need to plan their purpose in life to achieve all of their ambitions, that somewhere in the chaos, life slips away. Every 'motto' in life takes on new definitions at each step till the point arrives when one just does not remember the reason one started out on this path in the first place! Sigh, and to these wayward, ambitious lot, I'd like to say, "Breathe! Breathe! Breathe!"

It's good to have a destination when setting out on a journey especially if it's touted to be a long, arduous one. But focus on the destination surpassing levels so as to not allow you to admire the journey? Definitely not ideal! On the flip side, meandering aimlessly through thoughtless roads in search for nothing in particular - romantic notion! But meandering so far that one loses all sight of reality? Positively scary! So where DOES one draw the distinguishing line between life and dreams? Between illusions and reality? Between sentiment and practicality?

But then, that IS the point! There is no line to be drawn, no frameworks to be set in life! One may be born to serve a predetermined purpose (yet to verify this statement... my appointment with God is not for a long time yet) but one is definitely not supposed to open his eyes to the world knowing fully well what he must accomplish! There are no hard do's and don'ts in life! There is no reason why a man hell bent on becoming a doctor to save lives cannot change his mind and decide to be a butcher instead! There is no reason why a man heretofore unfaithful in love cannot grow to be the most loyal husband to his third wife! There is absolutely no reason to anything in life! And conversely, there is an underlying purpose to everything in life! It just is not ours to define! Reality is but an illusion we create!

In our incessant need to prove the might of our minds, we often forget the genius of simplicity! That maybe life is not designed to be this complicated after all! We don't need to have a plan for everything in life! Even if we do, it is absolutely natural for it to not work out! There is abundant joy waiting to be unraveled at every step we take... It is but a question of spotting it right! Of clearing our vision of the clouds of doubts, greed and rigidity. Of letting ourselves actually believing in those fairy tales from our school books! Believing that our lives could just be touched with magic!

And with this I bid adieu to y'all to return to bed to dream of brownies baking in the oven, old friends calling to catch up, a promising new year lining up ahead... Oh wait, that is my actual life! :)

Trapped with but encircling gloom

Voice caught, no shout to cry,

Every last ray seems to want to run

Away, oh so fast they fly!

Arms flail about in desperate need

To find that hand to pull through

The mind plays tricks and so you hope

That some shadow of the past will show

Yet time ticks by and the darkness grows

Even the mind numbs as truth prevails

Arms fall back and shoulders sag

And you prepare to journey on the next trail

But before you set foot on paths anew

You vow to quell all hope in you

For it is that which lead you here

And blinded you with things seeming dear

For long, I believed in fairy tales

Of shiny armors and valiant knights

Of Godmothers, magic and star dust too

In Santa Claus and the heavenly lights

Yet every now and then I'd think

Why life seemed so bent to sing

Of thorns on beds of roses red

And hearts that with pain, bled and bled.

And today, I wake to what now seems real

A journey not all that sweet and magical

Dreams of the past need new suits on now

A smiling face must also learn to frown

Heart brimming with love must learn not to share

Each man must learn how not to care

Look inwards now for all hope and strength

Love yourself now to any length

For no knights out there shall save your pride

No fairy godmother will give you a carriage that wide

No prince shall live happily ever after with you

All your dreams, only you can make come true

So you may still believe in fairy lights

But remember, that's just for the sleeping nights

There is no shame, no pain to be felt

In finding self alone, disarrayed and unkept

For the joy when our dreams now come true

Are ours alone, not split in two!

A dream

He hovers around while I try to work

And I swat away like an angry fly

Yet the moment he pretends to draw away

I pull him close before he finishes the try

Pulled up so close, I turn quite shy

And blush with joy at the look in his eye

A knock on the door snaps us out of it

And before we know, the den's all lit

So many people swarm about

Each wanting to talk, laugh or dance about

A party it is, yet I itch to break free

Be marooned on an island, just him and me

He seems at ease, working the whole crowd

All my friends so he doesn't want to leave no doubt

And a few close ones laugh and smile

At his earnest effort to want to be mine

My heart melts, yet again, in his subtle love

How did I get so lucky, dear God above?

My question's answered with a rude shove

With a persistent, " wake up, love!"

I come back to me and the life not so sweet

Where nor my phone chirps nor does he tweet

'Twas a dream, as it always is

With a sigh I roll over and stare into the abyss.

He still is as far away as he can be

Making it months and now years since I saw him, see

Sheer agony he has but put me through

Yet I dream, I dream of but him, a fool.

Life's not a dream and probably never will be

Yet I pray that one day this dream, I shall see.

A Random email...

Oye lucky lucky oye!!! Oh lucky lucky!!!!

Saade baara baje, hum ghar se nahi chale...what's going on??? what's going on???

Toote hai sab purje, phat-phat sar bhi phate, what's going on??! what's going on??

badi mushkil hai... toota mera dil hai

aur itna kaam hai ki dil roye haan

jaake kahaan main rapat likhaoon?

koi batlaye na...

mujhe neend na aaye....... mujhe chain na aaye...

mujhe kuch bhi na aaye...

najaane kahaan dil kho gaya.... na jaane kahaan dil kho gaya...

mere piya gaye rangoon wahaan pe mara hai telephone

piya ki yaad sataati hai...jiya mein aag lagaati hai!!

tick tick tick tick...tidididi tick tick...chalti jaaye ghadi...

What is your smile number?? Karoon kya dial number??

Karni hai private baatein... what is your private number???

Tip tip barsaa paani...paani ne aag lagaayi...

Aag lagi jis dil ko, us dil ko teri yaad aayi!!

Hum dono hai alag-alag... hum dono hai judaa judaa..

o o o o o o o o o o o o o!

Har ghadi badal rahi hai roop zindagi...

Assignment hai kabhi, kabhi spring break zindagi

kis haath ko....main thaam loon???

aaj jo hai yahaan...kal ho na ho!!!

waah waah!! mujhse acha shayaar toh duniya mein nahi!!! Please tell me you recognized all the songs!! If not, please go kill yourself!!!

This message is brought in public interest to you by Aditi is so Fucked Inc. She has an assignment due, a sprained neck, a splitting head, a chronic lethargy and a bus ticket to Arizona for tomorrow... Only confusion...Not a great combination!! Bingo!!!

LOL

I traveled far across the seas

With hope in my heart of much to see

New things, new places beckoned to me

Promising my pains soon old, will be

Alas! That dream but lasted twenty days

And now I seem back to my set ways

I drool, I yawn and my eyes do droop

As my eyes glaze, I feel out of the loop

Apparently classes here are quite like back there

Or it's just me with some chip missing somewhere

Either way I'm backing to sighing and looking up for You

To rid me, again, of this bane called education, so blue.

I try to write.... And I try some more... But either that cell in my brain that had a penchant for writing just fell off when I was laughing too hard to notice or that inevitable retardation of my brain is finally upon me. I am leaning towards the second theory given that I've always believed that like every part of your anatomy, your brain also stagnates in growth. I believe memory might expand but the actual CPU of your self, reaches maximum operating frequency and stops there. So as you add more and more ROM to your maxed out 4 GB RAM.... Retardation ,it is!!

Hah! What better way to exemplify the concept than the ridiculously nerdy description I just narrated! Ah! Engineer for life!! It just is so much tougher to find parallels in any other field for me!! Given the analytical style of functioning my brain is now habituated to...

Ah...sigh... I give up... Am posting this in desperation to see something new on my blog page... Pardon me for unleashing the misery of it on all and sundry ... Hopefully, I just might manage to upgrade my RAM once again... :D