Wise night!

The day shines bright and gay ahead

Beckoning to me with open arms

Yet I look behind at night

As she sheds a tear to see me gone

I know I should have a bounce in my step

As I walk on forth to lands of joy

But a somber longing gnaws within

For night, my friend of years gone by

When with her I longed for sun

I cried and thrashed within her arms

Hurting me some and hurting her more

With not a care to her wounds balm

But today as I am finally rid of her

I see the wisdom in her ways

For she but prepared me to welcome the light

With joy, yet caution, so that it may stay!

Happily ever after...

A fire is lit deep within my mind

I struggle hard to exactly find

The words that might ease that mental load

So that my mind becomes, again, a peaceful abode

I've been here before, I know I have

This crossroads like place in my head

Where a million thoughts flit in and out

Each trying to inch their way ahead

And push me to do but their will

And follow their lead right until

I reach that end they seem to dream

Is where I belong, that elusive realm

But just when one begins to catch my eye

The other nudges in with an even better lie

And colors me wild with reds and blues

Even the whole rainbow and all its hues

Engrossed I am in this mental bout

Lost to the world flowing without

At peace with all and in turmoil yet

Greedy for joy and dreading regret

Hopeful for life and yet cautious so

Staring at the skies and yet down below

Walking the fence of faith and abandon

Wondering which side is better to land in

As the blacks in my head fight the white so fierce

Sharp images do my soul pierce

Each a dream of the future and yet so real

That from every prick my heart must heal

But that happy place in my mind fights hard

And finally sits firm, an effort I laud

For now I know I am still with hope

And with every dying thought I still grope

To hold the embers of all that might be

A rosy tomorrow, 'My happily ever after'... finally...

Wasn't sure before...

A million doubts did cloud my mind

Just when there were knocks on my door

I rushed, then paused to greet them all

Wondering if me, they really were for

For months and months have made me lose

That certainty with which I found my way

And now flummoxed, as I stand

I don't trust myself to know night or day

And yet I see with complete trust

That what stands before me is a chance I must

Grab and revel in to make my sunny hay

While it lasts, so that I can later play

Yet there are those risks involved

Where I might put the lives of others on line

And a gamble that big, I shudder to take

For what ends up may just define

The person I am, and would be some day

With but a memory of that one mistake

When I played our lives in search for gold

To end up grasping but the fake

Yet the girl I was, knew I was smart

Enough so to march forth with an arrogant heart

And scoff at what threatens to impede my march

Confident in my power to them thwart

But that girl lays lost to me today

But I hope of finding her within me some day

And hope that day comes really soon

So I can open my eyes and recognize this boon

That is the knocks on my door

Yes I know, but wasn't sure before...