Happily ever after...

A fire is lit deep within my mind

I struggle hard to exactly find

The words that might ease that mental load

So that my mind becomes, again, a peaceful abode

I've been here before, I know I have

This crossroads like place in my head

Where a million thoughts flit in and out

Each trying to inch their way ahead

And push me to do but their will

And follow their lead right until

I reach that end they seem to dream

Is where I belong, that elusive realm

But just when one begins to catch my eye

The other nudges in with an even better lie

And colors me wild with reds and blues

Even the whole rainbow and all its hues

Engrossed I am in this mental bout

Lost to the world flowing without

At peace with all and in turmoil yet

Greedy for joy and dreading regret

Hopeful for life and yet cautious so

Staring at the skies and yet down below

Walking the fence of faith and abandon

Wondering which side is better to land in

As the blacks in my head fight the white so fierce

Sharp images do my soul pierce

Each a dream of the future and yet so real

That from every prick my heart must heal

But that happy place in my mind fights hard

And finally sits firm, an effort I laud

For now I know I am still with hope

And with every dying thought I still grope

To hold the embers of all that might be

A rosy tomorrow, 'My happily ever after'... finally...